Saturday, December 4, 2010

to someone special

Uwaa Ferrero Rocher dah habis, mcm mana ni? Haha. Orang tu mesti dah pening kepala kan :P Okay, Tak sabar nak tggu 7 Disember nii, dapat bnyak bnyak lagii. Ehehe. Sapa bagi? Adolah! :D

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Meet my lil sister , Is

Okay at first i ask my mum to "make" another one baby girl for me as u already know i dont have a sister. I only have 2 brother. Like other sisters, they used to share everything. Examples clothes, if they in the same size lah. :p Err, they can share problems too and that can makes them close to each other. Hmm. My brothers are useless. Haha Sorry adik ;p Its not useless that mmg tak guna langsung tu, no. It just that i am lonely, i dont have someone that who i can talk and share problem with instead of my mum lah. Ehehe Okay buat masa sekarang my mum is my bestfriend at home. I told her to get a sister for me then nahhh dya takmau pulak. Duhhh

Haaa dah mama takmau then i go and find " adik angkat" and here she is

Hi hi her name is Isdatul Asyifa. She is my one and only sister. Okay i love her so much. As people know, I never have petsis in my entire life. She is the place that i can share all my problem and my happiness with, well instead of my Deanda. :)
I love you, Adik. Thanks for concern & thanks for love me too. Ehehe perasan kan?
But what i know is, you're the best sis i ever had. XOXO

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Crying over Justin Bieber

Okay this maybe sounds stupid but seriously i am now crying over him. Uwaaaa :( His picture is everywhere in my room. His song keep rewinded in my head. I just loveee him. Is this what people called obsessed? You know why i've been like this? THIS IS BECAUSE JUSTIN BIEBER REPLY MY TWEETS! i despretely wanna meet him.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

The Barakhbah Clan Gathering

Haaa harini ada fmly gathering. Gathering ni is for all the syed and sharifah clan. I dont actually know em. Mama abah and tokmi suma best lah sebab depa kenai. Me and my cousins tak kenal sangat depa. Ni mcm org tua tua bnyak lah. Ada jugak muda muda tapi tak berapa nak kenal.Ehee tapi fun jugak. :)
okay thats all for today, toddles! <3

Monday, November 15, 2010

im bored


Thursday, November 11, 2010

pagi yang rajin

Haaa tadi sakit perut gila , pastu harith cakap dya lpaq. Pastu dengan sakit sakit perut ni turun jugak la buat breakfast kat depa. Turun2 bawah tgk takda apa nak makan instead of maggie. Ada la lauk semalam tp harith takmau makan. Aku bukak drower tu tgk ada perencah nasi goreng, aku tak penah try buat before ni, ish try jugak la tak sedap mmpoih p lah. Haha. Aku bawak kuaq lauk semalam masuk masuk ja laa dalam tu. Bila masak tu tgk tgk mcm sedap ja, haha mmg sedap punnnnnn. Yayy! Depa pun suka haa. Pas makan tu aku mop lantai ngan ryan, dya tolong aku. Ehee tatau pasaipa harini mood rajin gila. Ok Byeeeeeeee

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

i cant keep on like this

According to what i've wrote on the title above, yeah its true i cant keep on being like this. I cant stay home too much cause it drive me nuts. I cant even forget you even a second. Hmm. I need my friends right now to cheer me up. I want to meet them, only they can make me laugh. Deanda, i need you. :(

bb, this is for you.

Monday, November 8, 2010


Semalam birthday awak, awak dapat free call so awak call sy 24 hour. Saya bahagia sangat semalam. Kita cakap sampai penat, kita nyanyi sama sama, kita nnges sama sama sbb masing masing rindu kan? Hmm. Best sangat semalam awak dapat spend 24 hours ngan sy call sy. Kalo tak, awak keja kan tp dsebabkan sy nnges kat awak sbb sy rindu awak, awak rela tak p keja demi takmau tgk sy nnges. Thanks bb, sy appreciate sngat sngat! :')
hmm pagi tadi sy bgun sy nnges lagii, awak calm kan sy. Sy tau awak da tak bole tgk sy nnges sampai awak nak pindah sini, awak suro sy carikan awak keja and rumah sewa. Bsar gila awak nak korban untuk sy kan? :) Thanks bb, sy sayanggggggg awak sangat! <3

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Happy birthday

Happy Birthday Paein! May this year be your best year ever. I hope all your birthday wishes and dreams come true bb. You not just one year older, but a year better. :) I hope that for every candle on your cake you get a wonderful surprise. May today be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter and love.

Again, Happy Birthday! Sweet 21, be good and take care. :)

Happy 6th Month Anniversary

Baby, i cant stop crying, u know why kan? i miss you. On our anni, u have to go back to KL. I miss you, everything that i do reminds me at you. Hmm bnyak sangat memory sy ngan awak time awak kat sini 4 hari. Awakk, sy syg awak sangat sangat. Jaga bantai sy elok elok, u know i love it rght? Hm i promise i jaga domo u bg lat i tu. And sy buat mcm yg awak suruh, peluk domo bila nak nnges and bila sy rindu awak , Domo tu ganti awak bila awak takda nanti. Now awak dah takda, bila sy tgk domo, sy tak bole nak stop nnges. Awak suro sy makan chocolate2 yg awak bg tu, sy tak bole makan, tu buat sy lagi rindu awak. :( Awak cakap time tidoq peluk baju yg awak bg kat sy tadi, sy tak bole , bila sy peluk baju tu, sy tingat malam malam yg kita spend sama sama. Bila sy nnges tadi, awak suro sy baring and online sbb nak bg sy calm, awak lupa ka kita sllu buat mcm tu bila awak ada sini? Kita online sekali, gelak gelak, then tangkap gambar thru webcam? Saya ingat suma tu lagi okay :'( Evrytime sy tgk pic kita , sy mesti rindu awak, rindu nak spend time dengan awak. Esok birthday awak, kita tak bole celebrate sekali, and i hope awak suka gift yg sy bg tu okay? Paein, sy syg awak sgt sgt, takda org bole replace tempat awak dalam hati sy, takda sapa. HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY, baby! I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU, A LOT!


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

adakah patut?

Thanks tadi kepada sapa yg minum air milo dalam kelas pastu tak buang kotak milo tuu. Haihh menyusahkan orang! Disebabkan satu kotak milo and sapa pun takmau mengaku dya yg minum, INI DIA DENGAN JULUNG KALINYA KELAS 4SS2 kena denda kutip SATU kotak milo tu, pegang ramai ramai and buang kat tong sampah kat bawah baggunan. Dah la kena pegang kotak milo tu sampai 38 orang, TAK BOLEH LEPAS pulak tuu, kalau TERlepas, kami kena naik kelas balik then turun balik and buang sampah tu. Adakah patut? Ada yg sisa air milo tu tumpah dekat baju sapa tah, kesian kesian. Pastu time nak turun tangga tu, ada yg jatuh tangga pulak, bunyi "kedebukkk", kuat gila! Haha kesian hg wey! Esok last exam, yes yes yes! Tak sabaq nak raya hindu! Haha
Its been an ages since im not updating my blog. Okay lets talk about what i've been thru today. As ussual school day, i woke up at 7 am and Omaigod im late! Today i got Seni, Math and Sej exams. Lets starts with Sejarah. Hmm, as i open the paper *BLUR FACE. i was like " benda apa ni? sapa yg buat soalan susah mcm ni nii? Sepatah haram apa pun aku tak tau" i look serround me, they busy answering. Without hesitated , goodnight world! i slept. Ehehe. Math? "cool" :) u know what i mean? Haha. Okay lets forget about exam, haa after final, we got bbq at Frah's house. And the best thing, paein is coming. :) She taking the late night bus, and insyaallah will savely arrive at 6 am. When i wake up, she will already laying beside me. XD Paein, dont frget to bring what i'd list to you okay?
Here what i've ask her to buy :

1) Famous Amos
- chocolate chip
2)cadburry hazel nut
3)ferrero rocher
4) my domo
5)domo keychain eh eh its not keychain its actually to hang at the phone


and i cant wait to meet you, Happy Becoming 6th Month Anniversarry!

Lots of Love,

Saturday, October 30, 2010


i give you my heart you so that u can care for it.

i wanna be alone, im not im mood. :(

Friday, October 22, 2010


im happy with my :

-FRIENDS especially MY DEANDA! i love you sampai mati wehh!

Monday, October 11, 2010


fon aku retak seribu, just GREAT!

Sunday, October 10, 2010


okay enuf with the sad stories.




i'll never talk again, you left me speechless. you left me speechless so speechless.
i'll never love again, you left me speechless so speechless!

*i've made a unbreakable vow to my friend that i'll never love again. Sammmpaiiiii habis SPM. i promised myself.

No matter what, study come first. :)


i cant believe of what i heard, sakit hati la bodo babi naharam wey!

*i cant stop cryingg! i love you la bodo. Cant you see that?

Friday, October 8, 2010


I wanna change, I wanna be normal.

Everybody know i love you, too much. Everybody know how deep my love towards you. Everyone know that i would do anything for you. Eveyone know that we're not gonna break this relation because love between us is too strong. Everyone know that we cant live without each other. Everyone know that i've learn so many things about life when im with you.


Sometimes i feel like wanna change, i cant forever be with you. We cant be like this for too long cause we're the same sex. We're not gonna married. Im started to think about my future, and about us. If one day i ask you to let me go, just let me. We already know that time will come.



i miss to get close to Allah.


Hello Friday, im glad u're come, but when u're come, i started hate to to these.

1) homeworks.
2) tidy up my messy room
3) heard my num nagg.

but i just love to :

1) wake up at noon.
2) do nothing instead of sleep
3) spending whole day, facebook-ing
4) hang with my friends
5) sleep late
6) watching movies
7) turns on music out loud and dance

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


thanks to these people.

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person. Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart bigger. Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self-esteem grow. Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important. Thanks to those who worried, you let me know that you care. Thanks to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever. Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of true friends. Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.

know me

I’m a girl. I have feelings. I overreact. I underestimate. I over think everything. I look too deep into everything’s meaning. I dream big. My expectations are high. I can tell when I’m being lied to, but sometimes I wish I didn’t. Yes I get jealous, and I’m always scared I’ll lose you. That’s why when I ask how you are I mean it. When I ask how was your day, I genuinely want to know. And when I say I love you, I’m not lying.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

from him

Syed Paein July 23 at 1:40pm
heyy babyy ,
im sorry what i've done to youu .
im regret ryte now.
i need a chance from you
yeah, i cant turn it back
and past is past ryte . ;|

iloveyou so much bella,
please dont go . im begging u
i need youu i need you i need youu hunn

im sorry .
i want start it back
i want hold you back .
coz i cant live without u .

pleasee keep n take care all the things i gave you .
jangan bukak n tanggalkan rantai tu
smpan bracelet tu ,
wear it whever u go, alright?
my shirt, jaga elok2 if u miss me peluk baju tu,
dont break promise we've made ok? :')
i know u wont

b akan ingat semua pesan awak bg
and i will hold all the promise we've made
even ... hmm yeah b langgar salah satu dari jnj tu .

im deal what u said just now .
kita mula dari bawah .
but i need time to accept all this
i know have to accept whatevr it is cause i start it .
im regret ryte now .

u're the best gf i have .
but i losing you
b mnyesal .
i want u back .

iloveyouu so much ♥
im sorry im break your heart .
im bring u down .

* i will get u back, but pls dont go . i will change bck my attitude cause i want u bck to me. thats my promise ..



yeah . finally u change it




dah la apa?


just live yr life


i cnt live wthout u

dnt u get that?

answer me

u can live wthout me?


it doesnt matter anymore

its done we re done


mana jnj awak?


and mana janji awak?


jnj apa sy langgar?

sb lepas awk?

ckp la


awak dah tk syg sy thats why awak lepas


i already know so stop pretending that u love me


u know what?

waht u know?



yeah right


ok , my mistake lpas awak . but i da expalain why . sy buntu time tu idk what to do

i want u bck

heyy iloveyouu




plisss awak


i dah ckap once kita clash sy takkan senang2 change my mind back


im begging you





i need u


its over. i want to remind u this. When you get a new one, please

-take a good care of her
-when she say she love you, please believe her.
-When she tired and wanna sleep, dont mad at her.
-when she ask for break, dont ever let her go.
-dont break every promise that u've made.
-win her heart,
-love her with all yr heart


Tuesday, May 25, 2010


I can see the pain living in your eyes and I know how hard you try.You deserve to have so much more.I can feel your heart and I sympathize and I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life.I don't wanna let you down, I don't wanna lead you on, I don't wanna hold you back from where you might belong. You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised. I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry.There's nothing left to say but goodbye. You deserve a chance at the kind of love I'm not sure I'm worthy for you.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


PAEIN said:

dearest bella,

thx being my partner,
i want hold ur high but im stil ur pain away,
i love the way u laugh,
i love the way u are,
i truthly happy with u , hmm :)

sorrry whteva happen lastnite . ;|
sorry b tinggi suara mara u .
b tak mksud sume tu,
sorry im not good as ur bf like ur ex-bf before ;|
sorry i love you ;|

u can put the blame on me fr evrythng hppen ..
im so sorry .
you take a gud care ok? promise me .




BELLA said :


Saturday, April 17, 2010


i am so so dead. i mean, we are so so dead. tcher nak semua steps dah siap by sunday. ktrang tak prepare apa apa pun lagi, haihh. harini dah sabtu. malas nak buat papa, esok pndai pndai lah reka steps sendiri. wuu

Friday, April 9, 2010

He never stop complaining!

Jason was "kind" of my new boyfriend. i met him through a friend last week. He take me out for a meal last night but it doesnt go very well. First of all, he pickup me at my house and he said that its been very hard to find. He also dont want to park at the free car park at jalan gangsa because the que was too long. We tried Jalan Bersih but i was too expensive. At the end, we parked at Lorong Teja which are cheaper but it was too far from the restoran. At the restoran, he said that he didnt feel comfortable with so many people around so we find somewhere else and we found a little cafe around the corner. it was only eight table there and i take us ages to get serve. j ason said tht the waitress is very slow. i think she went ever slower after that-on porpose! jason's pizza was too hot and he burnt his mouth, my pasta was too dry but i dont want to complaint bacause jason was already doing enough for both of us. He said that the music was too loud and the light was too bright. he even accused the quite and nice couple next to us for being too noisy. nothing was right for him. After finished our meal, jason want to go for a walk but i said it was already late and i was tired. he ask me if i want to go out with him again and i say i think about it. i dont really intrested on seing him again. eventhough he had a good looking and a nice car, he is not my taste. give me someone more laid-back next time!

ORAL ORAL ORAL. im gonna read it to my teacher this sunday. this will help me gain my english mark fr the April test.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


One day you'll love me as I love you. One day you'll think of me as I think of you. One day you'll cry for me as I cry for you. One day you'll want me, but I dont want you.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

March 15th

bgun pkul 12, and juny and sab mai rumah, dh janji nak kuaq and tgk wayang. mula mula nak tgk alice in the wonderland lahh cause v3 mcm boringg ja + lucah. pfffft. pkul 2 mcm tu F mai ambik and ktrang p ah as mall, nak booking tcket, and kak tu ckap dahh full. urghh. terpaksalah tgk v3.
lepas habis movie p makan kat pak hainan and jalan jalan cp, and semua balik umah aku. sampai sampai ja umah ktrang terus lari pecut berebut laptop nak online. Haha. And i asked them to help me decorating my room ( i've buy some accesorry fr my room kat cp tadi)

sab tgh paku apa tktau
juny muka tension pgg sab

ni lah jadi last sekali. HAHA.

taktau apa jadi, merepek and gelak ja bnyak. HAHA!


merapu sampai lewat malam ngn depa depa ni, haha. we're having so much fun <3

dear parents

happy 17th anniversary to mummy and daddy. i love youuuu.
no more fighting alright? :)

lots of love,
Your children

according to my friends, bella please stop hoping.

i can say that we've failed to manage our relationship. You ruin everything. you were supposed to call me everyday, as you've promised. but you dont! You are the one who doesnt want this relation to work. If you say that you're busy with your practice or something that related, its okay. idm, but to call me once a day , is that too much to ask? i would have waited like a week or two but you never tried to reach me. whats wrong with youu? I can see what are you trying to pull off, i know you're find without me there. im giving up, sorry.

Monday, March 8, 2010

the night

woot woot, happy birthday juny. rindu nak melalak dlam keta lagi, rindu nak kareoke lagi, rindu nak gelak guling guling dgn hampa sampai malam buta lagi weyy. HAHA. rindu hampa lahh.

Friday, March 5, 2010

5th March

-holidayy but tak plan nak p mana mana.
-bgun pukul 1.30 pm cause semalam tido pkul 630. comment dengan mirul senget tuu. HAHA
-pkul 5 tadi, Arief call :)) but mcm biasa, tak sampai lima minit.

Thursday, March 4, 2010


thaks arief, as i promised you i will jaga baju ni kan? anywhere i go, i bring it along you tau takk?
time tidur lagilah! haha. i miss u arief :(

diary of the day ( March 4)

-tak p sekolah cause tak siap keja BM yg bergunung tuhh. haih but include malas sekali. HAHA
-bangun pukul 11.30 pagi cause farah call suruh siap nak kuar.
-kua lepak lepak ngn dilla, farah, apek ngn sorang lagi kwan apek tu apa tah nama dya.
-pkul 630 sampai rumah, mkan mkan and terus online. hee
-now 10.35, mcm biasa. tggu arief call, but sampai sekarang tak call call pun. hmm. i miss u arief :(

Thursday, February 4, 2010

overdose nescafe

tak bole tido sampai pkul 5, urgh!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

rough day aka spotcheck.

my phone was ringing while im in class. urghh! at first i dont rlly realize that, i tought it was cikgu Roaidah's phone. but everyone keep staring at me. i was shock and panic at the same time, i dnt know what to do. i just shut it down. for god sake, i cant even focus on study. i was soooo shock.
about an hour later, the guru disiplin came to my class and as ussual, spotcheck! me and 2 others kena lah rampas phone. they asked us to took off our tudung and satu lagi kesalahan, pakai dye. kena lagii. urgh! i started to cried. over and over again. haha. ehem, saye mmg cengeng yeee. :D
ohh, almost frget. while the teacher was doing the spotcheck tadi, i saw aisyah was so panic. i stared at her and guess what, she put her phone bisides the curtain. and the prefect dont realize that. at 1pm tadi, me and my frnds yg kena rampas bnda yg tak ptut bwak tu kena pegi to the office. teacher pushed us to tell em sapa lagi yg bawa phone and tak kena rampas. i dnt say a word instead of crying. haha.dilla aa yg confess yang aisyah tu pun bawa phone but tanak mengaku. for god sake, she is very very good in acting! tak mengaku satu apa pun. haih. but im very sure that dya mmg pgg phone tadi. but i just diam jaa. hmm. lepas the tcher beleter2 suma, depa suruh masuk kelas. i called my mum and asked her to took back my phone. abt 3 pm, she took it and now i have it back. muahaha. but this is the last time i bring it to school, too dengerous. pfffff.

january 28

nangis sampai demam. :(

Monday, January 25, 2010

25th January 2010

Time sc tadi, while teacher Zuraida was busy teaching, suddenly teacher Zanifa knock the door and called my name. aku pun p lah kat dya. and the conversation was like this.

teacher: Bella, pengetua nak student form 4 ni menari for hari sukan ni.
me: so? teacher nak saya bt apa?
teacher: saya nak mintak tolong kamu ajaq depa depa tu menari, boleh dak? tak ramai, 60 org ja.
i was like OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
me: tak ramai ka mcm tu teacher? kalo 10 org tu boleh gagah lagi lah.
teacher: tolong lah, pengetua nak. kamu tolong p satu satu kelas tny sapa yg nak masuk and bg kat teacher name list tu today.
me: okay then.

errr, taktau mcm mana nak handle. haihh.

kerana merentas desa

-sakit satu badan tmbah2 kaki, grr!
-jumpa org yg bagi check point 1st tuh. muahaha
-homework tak siap, nasib baik cikgu tak masuk.
-ptg tu celebrate birthday alin, gempak gila!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

dicorce? go ahead, idm.

up all up to youuu! its your problem not mine and not them. yeahh, u give us a lot of money and recommend us richly but do you ever think about our happiness? no right? we used to be so happy together. why is this happen? i dont want this! i cant stand to see both of you fighting. can u please stop? for our sake. please. im begging you. im sick of crying and trying to smile in front of the public. in theory, i seems happy to their eyes, but inside me, DYING! so if you think that u should divorce, then go on. if that makes u both happy. without thinking of your children.

Monday, January 11, 2010

karangan lima bintang!

urgh! kena buat karangan 20 karangan lima bintang and submit khamis ni! dah la tak start satu apa pagi, haru ni dah hari isnin. gila dah la krngan spm ni pnjang2. waaa. malasssssssss!


penat kena bgun pkul 6 pagi hari hari. sumpah malas. haihh. mula mula sek mmg ah semangat kan nak bgun, lama lama dah liat. pffff. umm, pasal sekolah semua okay. cikgu2 yg ajar pun best kot accept cikgu bm tu, keja nak swuh bt karangan, gila boring! haih. paling best, time bi. yess, dpat Set A lagii dgn dilah sab juni. haha. dah 4 taun set bi skali ngn depa and teacher yg paling best, Puan Wan Basyirah. hehe. now tgh busy dgn latihan rumah sukan, kena stay kat skolah sampai pkul 5. malam pulak, lepas buat homework. baca novel, ECLIPSE! :)) hari hari buat bnda sama. hehe.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

first day of school

this morning i woke up by myself at 620am. sudah jgak nak bgun cause selalu pkul 2 baru bgun, ehem. haha. first day of school, OMG OMG OMG! it was AMAZINGGG! jumpa kawan terus peluk sampai lebam. grrr! tadi ada test math and science. errr, math lah susah sbb cikgu tak ckap pun nak ada test, tak ready papa lah! haih. esok and selasa ada lagi orentasi, huhhhh. penat.